Thank You, Kind Sirs

Not last night, but the night before...

...we were on our way home from somewhere I honestly cannot recall (more on this later) when I remembered that I was out of milk. It was 9:29pm and the only place to stop that isn't well out of the way is Whole Foods. Turns out they closed at 9:30. However, after being told through the locked sliding glass doors that they were closed, I made a sad face, turned around to leave and soon heard, "Do you just need one or two things?" I whipped around to face a kind sir who let me in when I assured him I was just getting milk. I was fast. And grateful. Because if I don't have the means to make a UltraMeal shake in the morning, I'm in big trouble - and I'm not being spoiled and bratty about this...I really mean that I might not be able to eat anything for breakfast and that is trouble for the rest of the day.


...well, this was actually last night: Kind sir in Boulder sold us his old Bugaboo stroller with a ton of accessories for a screaming deal. And seeing as how Eric is all about the gear we can't afford right now, he is pretty ecstatic. I think he'd just play with that thing all day if he didn't have a restaurant to finish building.


...(this week)kind sirs with questionable motives approved me for not-enough-money-but-far-too-much-money in grad school loans. This makes me anxious, for I do not like debt, but there aren't as many options as I thought for 35 year old women who have spent their professional lives working in non-profit so far and don't have any money saved for grad schools and got laid off in January. When I am loaded (money, not booze, hopefully) I will endeavor to establish a scholarship for such people.


(sigh)

there are a lot of things that piss me off throughout the typical day - things that people do TO me, things people do AROUND me, things people do in the course of existing in the world. I mean, I could have strangled Eric for not closing the door last night and letting in an evening's worth of hungry mosquitoes. (I'm irritable and I did apologize for freaking out on him a little). And I was really put off by that tool that tried to smuggle monkeys (what?) today. I'm not keyed about some of the chaotic landfall of tasks that has made our last weeks in CO a little too stressful, but through all of it I have to remember that good thing are happening. Sometimes you have to ask for it, but most of the time good things are happening all around you, but the annoying, mean, dickish stuff just gets more attention. I know this isn't rocket science, but thinking about it today reminded me to extend a little gratitude.

I'll try to throw some gratitude in with the sarcasm and whining whenever possible.



Oh - the "honestly I cannot recall" thing: I didn't take the idea of "baby brain" seriously and have vowed to stop reading a lot of "what to expect" type guides about pregnancy...but MAN am I a complete moron so far this week. I literally forget what I'm saying mid-sentence if I was even making any sense up to that point. My vocabulary has become non-existent at times and I'm struggling to think of words like, "car" and "water" while talking with someone. So the fact that I don't remember where I was driving home from 2 nights ago doesn't really surprise me at all.